Dear diary,

Suh has been pondering the entire day. Staring into space in hope that space will give her an enlightenment. And I supposed, she has been enlightened, by all her illogical thinkings that she came up by herself.

She has no time to be stagnant for long, for the other are all running. She got to keep up with the pace. Because this is university, no one other than one or two cares about you anyway. So why bother. Suh got to buck up for everything, for BYS, for her studies and for the hopes that everyone pins on her.

She wants to bring smiles to those who cared for her.

Now I've learnt how tales can defer from truths. Encouragements look so vague to me, and to think I'm always doing that.

Do you really mean what you say, no one knows, its only you.

Are you saying things just for the sake of saying.

You look so fake to me, after a night.

Can I still trust you?

And i tell you, I no longer trust you.

Thanks yun for everything, for yesterday despite the oh-so-mighty-high workload that you have to clear. Suh promise, she will always be there to look out for you, help you think and ward off bad luck with you. Because that's what sisters do for each other.

Suh