Dear dory,

Reviews for this make up base have been good.

Should or not? Perhaps it’s time for a change in make up foundation…hmm…

Revlon ColourStay mineral mousse makeup

Maldives

Have you ever heard of Maldives? It is a country made up of thousand little coral islands and it is simply a paradise, for Mother Nature has provided what is essential for survival there, with plentiful available. But it is going to disappear soon due to the effects of global warming on Madives, as widely publicized by the media.

The reason why Suh brought this up is because of documentary she watched today that changed her mindset.

Paradise as claimed, perhaps Maldives ain't the perfect paradise people think it is. With the problems of declining land mass due to raising sea water, Maldives has a range of social problems to deal with - unemployment, education, lack of adequate sanitation and basic necessities. It is quite ironic, to be able to see heaven and hell in the same place. Despite its thriving tourism industry, Maldives has a high rate of unemployment. Because the revenue generated is more often than not, diverted out to foreign multinational companies. Sad. (remains suh about the poverty issue she saw at Philippines.)

Suh felt sad for the citizens living there. You should really watch the documentary.

The documentary really inspired Suh to visit Maldives, hopefully the global warming prediction will not come true so soon.

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Dear dory,

On the second day of Christmas, Suh went to her JC class gathering. Suh was late, when she arrive, there was only Jiahui, the guys and the couple of our class (zhao zhao and carmen). Haha as usual, this couple is awesomely sweet, zhao zhao is always there to ensure Carmen is well fed, well taken care of and well protected. haha very sweet right!

Had a great time catching up with les, kiahui, jiahui, black black, Carmen, zhao zhao, kok, zhen yang, yong cheng, jasmine and JK and best of all, ms phua!!! And everyone has changed for the better in someway or another, which is a good thing. =)

It’s been so long since our class last saw her, Suh was actually quite surprised Ms Phua appeared today, she’s still as gorgeous as ever, haha love her smile to bits. And Jun Kit appeared too, and he sure is someone who ain’t afraid of being shy, and he can really talk, with sense and humor! Full marks for EQ. Zhen Yang became very appreciative, he even send a message to everyone of us after the BBQ. Yong Cheng became more outgoing, I still remember I did not talk to him at all during JC times because he was very shy. Jia Hui became more vocal, and doesn’t always follow decisions blindly anymore. Kia is happier now at her design school. And black black finally appeared for our class outing after so long, he is always so busy with his army.

We had gift exchange soon after the BBQ, suh bought a pencil holder and snow spray for the exchange. It was originally meant to increase the festive feel for this party, but somehow i guess it didn’t turn out well. Jia Ying was attacked and Jun Kiat’s face was black from then onwards. Though the guys refrain from spraying the girls after that, suh felt bad for causing such incident to happen. Shouldn’t have bought that in the first place…

More photos available here.

1st Day of Christmas will be up soon.

Back to work!

Suh

Dear dory,

This post has been so long overdue but last friday, suh went back to AJ (since like ages ago). The moment you entered the school, you will be greeted by the security post. Usually no one will take note of this small little hut, but this time round, it caught Suh’s attention. Because the security post looks really posh now, they even have a tentage and POTS OF PLANTS (LIKE LOL.) Security post also want to decorate. hahah. AJ style – very budget.

  Tada evidence haha.

Other than the security post, AJ didn’t change much, it’s still as green as ever. Except that the running track was changed. Still remember how Suh use to literally SLIDE across the slide while running on the part of the track that is near the temporary block. Her shoes will automatically turn into roller blades whenever she reach that part, without fail. hahaha hilarious really.

She went back for council gathering, but didn’t expect it to be a “stakeholder’s” meeting that lasted for 2h. o.O Wrong choice to go back.

Oh by the way, Spencer’s dogs – noodle and bobo are soooo cute! Especially noodle, adorable cute little puppy that is soooo brilliant. He actually understand what  I was telling him! And he is a great dancer!!!! Awww

Suh

I think my tagboard is spoilt but i’m just too lazy/ has no urge to figure out what happened. hehe

Suh

Something meaningful that suh happened to trampled on while writing Christmas cards for her friends.

Oh by the way, merry christmas to you, dory! You have been a great friend to suh, to be able to share the laments, sorrows that happened in her life is one happiness that Suh enjoys. Thank you, dory =)

Suh

From: 
Sent: Tuesday, December 22, 2009 4:04 PM
To:
Subject: Grade Review

Hi Suh Tyng/ Su Ting,

I’ve received your grade review request and attachments (10 quizzes and HW). I’ve communicated the decision to RO and you will hear from them soon.  

I’d like to take this opportunity to explain more about your overall grade and component grade.

You received full marks on HW components (5%), which is part of the project & assignment component. The quiz grades recorded match perfectly with your submission. Dropping your lowest quiz grade, your total quiz score is 79, which is converted to B+ as progress assessment, according to SMU grading schemes (see syllabus page 3).

Your final exam mark is 47. It is converted to F according to SMU grading schemes. The final exam mark has a very negative effect on your overall grade since the weighting is 40%.

After carefully reviewing your final exam and component grade, I’ve decided there will be no change for your grade due to the following three factors. First, there is no error with respect to grading and recording. Second, previously I’ve increased your class activities component in order to increase your overall grade from a high C- to C+.  Third, after the increase, your overall grade is a very low C- (just around the margin). Therefore, no further adjustment can be made.

I wish you the best for everything. Have a great holiday!

Cheers,

Tracey

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Assistant Professor of Accounting

School of Accountancy

Singapore Management University

60 Stamford Road, Singapore 178900

Email: traceyzhang@smu.edu.sg

Tel: (65) 6828 0104

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Dear dory,

Suh went out with the girls - Agnes and Fei just now. Although all 3 of us ended up roaming Far East for (I think, 3 rounds), and ended up buying nothing. We had a great time, really. Talking about everything under the sun, from mousehunt, to studies, to stalkers, to weird desperate people, and of course the hot topic – gossips. haha. Though Suh was quiet for most of the topics because it was kind of hard for her to relate to her girls’ whom are studying in NUS, the feeling to be just with them was really nice. It felt as though, Suh’s back to her old secondary school days, where laughing alone is enough to fill the day, it was a nice reminisce. We went to eat the very famous but okay chicken rice on Far East Level 5, and spent our next one hour talking – typical thing that girls will do right, haha gossips?

So we got to the point where the girls started talking about the blooming romance in each of their respective cliques, about how going-to-be couples deny everything that is in fact, true, and how the usual unrelated people will tease the couple, with their dosage of teasing in inverse relationship with the reactions of the couple. We touched on two ‘couples’ - one having a Taiwan dramatic style of wooing (lol it’s really funny, if i still remember and you really want to know, I’ll tell you the entire story. haha but because of time constraint, suh chooses not to type the entire story out.), while one having a looong looong process of wooing – And the best part was, all ended up with happy ending. Happy =). All these talking, however, brought back a lot of the past which were long forgotten. Memories on how a heartbreaker she is, how she wants perfection in her partner, how she will react to someone whom she thinks might have a hidden agenda, and how stubborn she will hold her belief once they are set, despite what others said, causing even more heartbreaks. and now – the heartbreak that she herself has to endure. It sure hurts, a little, like a pinch, and it just left me speechless (again) at that point of time. Rather bitter… And plus suh is reading the stupid twilight eclipse, it contributed to the pinch. Grr… wrong choice wrong time. Sigh.

But looking at the happy faces of the two, especially agnes. Suh felt really happy for the girls.

May your happiness last forever, my dear =)

haha i doubt they still read my blog, but suh just wants to pen down what she went through just now.

And yunnie is getting concerned with her qoq razor tv. haha she said her voice sounds teh, but actually suh thinks – being yourself is still the best. haha aiyo you think too much already. If your voice is teh, then what’s mine? haha and ziling jiejie? =P

And mych, i doubt she will be able to read this post, but suh just wants to apologize for not helping you pack for your trip! +( Nevertheless, have loads of fun alright! and let’s play with your sushi soon! Gosh, after playing with spencer’s dogs yesterday, it spurred my desire again to get a pet shop job! Grrrr…but there’s no time…=(

Alrights, the sun is rising soon. And Suh has to wake up at 8am. Zzzzzzzzzzomg. Insomia, I hate you!

Suh

Dear dory,

Suh just fell in love with this Fred Perry bag immediately! (Perhaps the blue one is nice too. haha I just can’t decide. =P) But the price…12,600 yen…which converts to don’t know how many thousand sing, is like an astronomical amount! Goodness! Sigh, never mind, shall hunt for a nice looking bag to go school with since she doesn’t like the one that sis bought from bangkok. =( Sigh, to think she trusted her sis’s taste.

Suh

http://www.ec-fredperry.jp/SHOP/F9080.html

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Because pretence does exist, that's why masks exist.    ~Suh, 2009

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Dear dory,

Suh is a really blessed kid, with the love that the people showered on her, she is definitely one fortunate kid.

In the midst of brooding over Ted’s humongous workload last night, her dear lesbian sent her this. Though lame as usual, it really warmed her heart. Heartfelt thanks. =)

From: TAN Siow Yun
Sent: Wednesday, December 16, 2009 1:22 AM
To: KOK Suh Tyng
Subject: LES!

Haha les,

Though you don’t want to add oil, I found a real cute picture of jiayou!

For you, add water!

Hope your sunburn and peeling get better day by day until it’s all back to normal! (:

Loving your tan, les

My sunburnt skin started peeling in blocks, and it really doesn’t look nice. Imagine peeling onion skin, that’s how my skin is peeling now. Hate the patches of uneven tan!

Suh

Hot dog bun is sooo delicious! yum yum.

Dead dory,

Today Suh went for Jas’s birthday celebration at Sofra at Shaw Towers. The food was not bad, though the waiter was a little irritating. And penny was really sweet - she hand made a christmas card for each of the Kinabuhies people, totally sweet. Thanks girl, cheers to our long lasting friendship =)

Having more than 5 people in the Dean’s list, hanging out with the Kinabuhies never fails to motivate me to excel in academics, though sometimes it does make Suh feel stupid. But hanging out with them really brings suh to reality, to the fact that it is possible to excel despite all the tremors and difficulties, their will to achieve excellent academia leave Suh to have no time to waste crying over spilt milk. It is possible.

Went shopping  before meeting the peeps just now, and coincidentally, Suh bought a band for charity that says, “Don’t look back”. Perhaps it’s a sign or something. Yes, don’t look back to the past, because it can’t be changed. Present and future beholds in your own hands.

Anyway, suh is starting to believe there’s such thing called “retail therapy”, though it’s heart pain. But spending 100 odd dollars on random things for friends and herself really does make Suh feel better. At least, it keeps her mind occupied on happy things.

Ted’s research is somehow, sucking my life away. Shucks. For the sake of money, got to do it.

“Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.”

Buddha quotes (Hindu Prince Gautama Siddharta, the founder of Buddhism, 563-483 B.C.)

A quote from buddha to end off this post.

Alrights, back to reality yo!

Suh

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Dear dory,

This post is gonna be image heavy. Aiyah, but too bad there’s isn’t a group shot with si les. =(

  haha somehow, this picutre is super nice. hahaha suh likes. =)

Dory, as you can see, suh is very tanned from her kayaking trip now. Though she likes her tan, but her skins are actually peeling and it is not a nice scene to witness. And plus, her scalp is peeling as a result of the sunburnt. Worst still, her lips are swollen from the blisters formed as a result of the blazing sun.

Oh anyway, perhaps it will be good to include some photos from PEE =) The people at PEE were really awesome! funny too. =) awesome peeps.

Passport making session tmr! Hope the face mask will help to soothe the dryness on suh’s skin, she doesn’t want a wrinkled face on a passport that will follow her for don’t know how many years. Fingers crossed.

Suh

You understand how i feel, i don’t think so. bullshit bullshit bullshit!

Dear dory,

Not sure if Suh told you about her research assistant job for her prof. She is supposed to spend her december holidays helping him do research. Because the previous system of research is very ambiguous and slow, suh thought it will be good to update the prof about the progress and ask him questions just in case she went to the wrong track while researching. So suh attached the incompleted file to prof via email. And after that, she got this reply:

-----Original Message-----
From: tedt@lalalalaa.edu.sg [mailto:tedt@lalalalalaaedu.sg]
Sent: Tuesday, December 08, 2009 11:17 PM
To: Suh
Subject: Re: RA on game book - definition of proximal and distal creativity

Hi suting, I thought you were going to come in every 1-2 days, and also that you were going to bring the books back soon, in fact I somehow thought you'd be tomorrow and have the books back then if not sooner. I do need work done soon and I don't want to have the delays or long periods in between meetings that seemed to be plague all my work this summer. If you are getting busy on other things, please let me know as I'd rather not have expectations. Thanks

Sent from my BlackBerry Wireless Handheld from M1.

Although minutes later, prof sent another email to apologise:

-----Original Message-----
From: tedt@lalalalaa.edu.sg [mailto:tedt@lalalalalaaedu.sg]
Sent: Tuesday, December 08, 2009 11:27 PM
To: Suh
Subject: Re: RA on game book - definition of proximal and distal creativity

Thanks also for the references. I'll take a look tomorrow. Sorry, not in a good mood tonight.

Sent from my BlackBerry Wireless Handheld from M1.

Suh was a little hurt upon receiving because this email seems as if that he is picking on her work efficiency. No doubt she herself knows her own efficiency rate, but suh has always strive to thrive for her best. But obviously, it was not enough for him. But sometimes it is really hard to grasp what is on prof’s mind because he is always changing his approach and plans. One day he might ask you to do task X, another day he will tell you the task X is redundant. Sigh.

And that brings me to another point that, somehow suh feels that in these two emails, suh has been treated as a punching bag to vent anger on, and after the anger is gone, then you apologize for what has been done. The saying, “what’s has been done cannot be undone” nicely fits my thinking. Is this the correct way to treat a student? Even if bad moods really affect how people behave and think, is it right to show your mood by venting on someone totally irrelevant to the subject?

Racking the brain for almost 30 minutes, Suh came up with this emails.

-----Original Message-----
From: KOK Suh Tyng
Sent: Wednesday, December 09, 2009 12:46 AM
To: Ted Feichin TSCHANG
Subject: RE: RA on game book - definition of proximal and distal creativity

Hi prof,

I understand the importance for you to complete your work by this holiday because of your commitments, and I have already promised to give my best commitment during the holidays for the research as well. I tried to read up on the tasks that have to be done during my free time after last week's meeting, and I do admit that my progress has been a little slow due to other responsibilities in a school event organized by my CCA for the past few days. In order to maximize the time on researching, I thought it might be a good idea to double check my progress with you via email in case I goes to the wrong track which might deter the advancement, hence explaining the email.

With regards to meeting you tomorrow, I do hope to go school tomorrow but because of the kayaking event for the past 3 days under the sun left me seriously sunburnt and nauseous, thus I hope to get rest tomorrow to recuperate and recharge. It is my bad for not making myself clear in the previous email because it had slipped off my mind that I promised to meet you tomorrow.

Thus I sincerely seek your understanding that the breaking of promise was purely unintentional.

Suting

Perhaps it is partly Suh’s fault for not informing the prof, but…should suh be treated as a punching bag? Sigh

So tired from the kayaking expedition.

Suh

“When you are in love and you get hurt, it's like a cut… It will heal but there will always be a scar.” ~Anonymous

One day, if you are able to look at the person and smile with no confluence of sourness or bitterness, that means your wound has disappeared and what’s left behind is just a scar.

Courage and Determination.

Dear dory,

Today was spent on the sea at Pasir Ris training from Pasir Ris Park to Punggol and back for the upcoming SMUX PEE expedition on the 7th, together with Penny and Edwin. But Edwin did not turn up for training today.

And for the umpteen time in so many months, Suh felt really weak physically. Though the training only lasted for 4h, this training was a fruitful and memorable experience. This was the first time that a kayaking team got so motivated to paddle as fast as they could to reach their target point, because the fleet was chased by a thunderstorm. The scene was really horrifying, imagine you paddling and the view in front of you was a calm sea with a sunny sky, but the moment you turned behind, there’s practically nothing visible, because the entire scenery was shielded by the rain, just like what you would normally see in sci-fi movies when the world is coming to an end where the people will run for their lives with the tsunamis chasing them from behind. It was hilarious, yet exhausting. Because of that, the team miraculously completed the 1.5h journey in an astonishing 45 minutes! And thanks to the motivation, Suh is suffering the after-effects of that – aching muscles on her ENTIRE arms. =((((( While Penny only suffered aches on her biceps. BOO. Felt damn weak. Sigh. But lucky there’s deep heat cream in my house. DEEP HEAT CREAM ROCKS! And please, aches, go away pleasseeee. If not Suh might have to end up peeing in the sea instead of completing the expedition. =|  (cross fingers)

Anyway that was one of the amazing sights that Suh witnessed on her third time kayaking. That’s the reason why Suh loves to kayak, because unlike any other mundane sports,  there will be something new for her to remember for every expeditions. Like today the team was supposed to bring their own lunch, instead of the usual bread and biscuits and fruits, some of the teammates brought food like – Sausage MacMuffin w Egg, Fried Bee hoon, Fried rice, Fried Kway Teow, Fishball (hahahaha!) . And to think Suh has been very innovative to bring her childhood food – Yam Yam to this training session. LOL. And someway through the journey, people got bored and they started to play with a fish that happened to swim near the water surface, by scooping the fish with the paddle and attempting to throw it into another kayak. LMAO.

And Suh made a blur mistake, again. Sigh. While keeping the kayaks, she didn’t notice her partner, Alson was behind her. And she just took the paddles out from the combing and then the paddles poked Alson at the corner of his eyes! And then after that while moving the kayaks further upshore, suh’s lousy no strength hands couldn’t take the weight of the kayak and it slipped off her hands, causing the kayak to scrapped Alson’s pelvic bone. Oh my…Suh felt damn guilty about it. She could have prevented those from happening, by checking or even by informing Alson when her kayak is on the verge of slipping off her hands. Sigh….. lousy muscles…Maybe tmr suh shall buy something nice for Alson to make up for it. Sorry really, sorry!

May the aches be gone and Suh to complete PEE, harmless and not harming anyone!

Suh

PS. Still can feel the currents even until now. Going up and down, up and down.

Dear dory,

Slept till 11am today, before dragging myself up unwillingly. Took 1.5h to bathe and all before heading to school to meet prof ted. And the rain was really irritating, first it ruined the picnic date with les and uncle foo at Marina Barrage yesterday (which we have to sadly make do with a GSR picnic (LOL YES IN SCHOOL)). Then I have to bring one big long umbrella together with the usual barangs – laptop and a bag, because Suh lost her beloved blue umbrella which has been with her since primary 4 (sobs). Bringing something bulky on top of the usual big barangs was totally, hazardous and troublesome! Suh almost tripped over her the umbrella while walking simply because the umbrella itself is too hard to carry properly (imagine one side you are holding a relatively heavy tote and the other hand holding your laptop bag with a 2.5 kg laptop on top of the umbrella). It was really embarrassing, but since making a fool out of herself has become so common in suh’s life, she managed to pose it off naturally. haha what a thing to be proud of, sigh.

But anyway, let’s get back to the main topic, so suh met up with prof ted to discuss about the direction of her research assistant job for December. As usual, Ted has changed his direction for his games book again. Honestly speaking, even though Suh has officially worked under him for 2 months or so, she really has no idea what is he working on exactly, except for the brief skeleton of the book. Something about creativity and the game industry and designers, anything deeper than that, I’m afraid I might have difficulty.

Ted actually said something to Suh today – he commented on her blurness. Her mum actually said the same thing to her too when she called home to ask her mum to help find the book which Ted lent it to her some time ago. Though it has been obvious to Suh that she has always been very absent minded (judging by how she lose her umbrella, and how she forget what was being told to others, or what others had said), this weakness of her has started to affect her life as well as her work performance. Sigh sigh sigh, how do I make this absent mindedness go away? I realize I shouldn’t try so hard, because it will make things worse. Perhaps I should try to stay focus and not multitask so much. Yeah I should try it, be focused be focused and don’t think about other things.

Okay for the sake of money, suh, you have to show that you can be professional and not some mediocre kid.

Jia you jia you.

Suh

Dear dory,

On my way to school today, Suh came across this podcast that has been in her Ipod for very long - 4个月又21. It’s about a story of a girl who liked a guy for a long time. But sadly, this feeling was not reciprocated by the guy, the girl kept getting cold shoulders from the guy, on, off, on, off. Somehow, I admire the courage of this girl. The way she tolerated the cold shoulders and the way she handled her feelings. At that point when she said, “没有哭。因为以经悲伤的流不出泪来了” My heart twitched a little. That feeling of her, must really hurts alot.

音乐日记 - 音乐日记 - 4个月又21

Stupid shit, how can someone deserve something for doing something that hasn’t been done?!

You said i didn’t attend class twice, but for goodness sake I attended every classes of yours and was even on time for every lessons of yours and even signed the attendance list!! What the fuck, how can it be possible for me to get a B for participation?! And do you bloody know that this freaking mistake is going to cause your student ONE SUB GRADE totally? Adding a few marks to the finals grade may be justified, but how justifiable can it be when this component alone can bring up a sub grade, and what if the original mark is also at the higher end of the grade and moderation can also bring up the grade? It will be one full grade! THIS IS SO UNFAIR.

Just fuck off.

Dear dory,

Suh’s year 2 semester 1 has come to an official end. This semester definitely wasn’t a breeze for Suh, having not much friends to help with school work (except for yunnie who never fail to help Suh with her linguistic skills), it was really hard, it felt like you have to depend everything on yourself. The stress level was really high, so high that Suh kept dropping hair. Sigh, having tried so hard to strive for the best for everything she had done, a part of suh keeps telling herself that it is still not good…doesn’t really have a good feeling for the outcome of this semester, everything looks so grey…Tried so hard for AE and Macro mid terms – turn out the results was way below class average. Tried so hard to pay attention during classes – turn out that she lost a good friend. Tried so hard to maintain a good relationship with her good friend – turn out to become a dispensable soul. Tried so hard to do well with her presentations – turn out to be a flop, having to forget her script. Tried so hard to score well for her FT- turn out to look as if she wasn’t prepared and the work presented was very superficial. Things, just aren’t the way she hope it would turn out to be. Sometimes, she really wonder why. Why are all these happening? What exactly went wrong?

Perhaps what Spencer said was right, “auntie, i think you are trying too hard. Take things by your stride and it will turn out better.” I know it all along, but…sigh…I think i’m just one stubborn soul.

Suh