I think he has kind of forgotten about our 11pm agreement.

School has never been my favorite place to go to.

I remember when i was young, I really hated school. The thought of having to go to school the next day will make me emo for the entire day, and at night i will cry myself to sleep. That explains why most of the time I will go school with puffy eyes. But it was mostly during primary school.

Then that came secondary school, I still hated school, but the thought of band practices, talk cock time, my horn, my crush (at that time) and having someone to sit with me and talk to (then it was ange) kind of calmed me down from the pre-school-reopening syndrome. But at times, I would cry myself to sleep, because I was afraid that I have not studied enough for tests, especially Geography, which I had the least confidence in because it requires so much work. And when I didn’t score well, I will be very moody.

JC times, I was very motivated to go to school, to study, to go for council, but that was also the time where i cried the most, especially when times when i got back my results, which were usually bad (remember most of the times, it would be either GP or Maths). In fact I cried alot during JC time (but of course, secretly, in bed. Don’t really like the idea of people seeing me in tears and mucus).

Throughout all these years, friends have been the main motivation for me to go school. They are the ones who will make me happy.

University years now, but still, school is still not my favorite place. I do not cry that much now, even though the results that I always get back won’t be good, as if I have became immune to it. Seeing the people around me to getting way better results, yeah, I admit at times, I was jealous and disappointed. But the feeling will just come and go very fast. There’s one thing that I realized too, the more I cursed and swear and force myself to study harder, the results will tend to be inversely proportional. I guess that says alot of suh’s strengths.

Damn. This whole entry doesn’t make sense.

Rahh.

i’m just very tired of working so hard towards nothing. feel like giving up…

(T.T )

Perhaps what frog say is right I’m giving myself too much stress. hmm yeah suh, do the best you can. don’t overstress yourself. you know you can. your contribution to student life has proved that you aren’t working towards nothing, there’ll bound to be something that you will be working towards, you’ll realize it soon. Fate will bring it to you. Cheer up! Give your best shot. =)

Dear dory,

We are always doing stupid things. Be it on purpose or unintentional, stupid things cause us  to make a fool out of ourselves, in front of friends and families, and worse, the one that you have been trying to maintain a perfect image with.

Instead of being embarrassed by it, shouldn’t we embrace stupidity since it brings laughter to the people around you? In that way, the world will be happier.

Suh contributed to making the world a little happier today. She overslept on the train and woke up at Marina Bay station, and have to take back to Cityhall station to go school. Rather stupid, but it made my day. hahaa. stupid.

So, stupid ain’t that stupid, because it has the magical ability to bring a smile.

Daily stupidity acts rock my ass. But shall just leave it to daily acts, hope brain ain’t affected.

Suh

Dear Dory,

Sigh its really bad, suh is filled with negative feelings now.

Super moody today. Got back my marketing quiz and it was disappointing. It was way below average. She got 12/15 while the rest of her group mates are getting full marks. And this quiz will contribute to a good 10% to her grade. She hasn’t been doing too well for her previous promo management quizzes too. Really disappointed with herself.

Last week, suh got back her econs mid term, it turned out to be bad too. Got average grades. Sigh, the efforts don’t seem to be paying off. This time’s Econs Suh put in way much effort into understanding the concepts as compared to previous semesters. If you really have to compare, the efforts were really comparable to Y1S1’s effort, when the hard work was paid off. But this time, it didn’t turn out to be the same. Disappointed, needless to say, as usual. 

Not brilliant enough, its a long accepted fact.

Actually Dory, you know. Sometimes Suh wonder why will she bother so much (especially for economics) about her grades, since she know that grades aren’t everything.  But she really hate to be the lower end of the curve, to be the platform for people to step, to be the ‘blur’ party during discussions, to not know anything, she really hates that feeling. She hates to be like a noob, to be dependent on people to get things done. The helpless feeling is terrible. But it just keeps coming back!! =(((((((

Sad.

Oh well, how now?

Suck thumb lo. And pray for more brains.

What to do.

Suh

Dear dory,

It’s confirmed! Suh’s going for the award interview on Thursday evening! $500 cash please drop from the sky!!!!!!!!!!!!

DKNY/ FCUK watch please wait for me!!!!!!!!!

Suh

Please positive mama, let subliminal perception occur.

I WANT TO ACE MY MODS!!

Long overdue – with people so dear to suh. Yay had fun! THANK YOU!! <3

Batam 2010!

21st XOXO

Singapore Flyer 8 Oct 2010

Can’t find my dream watch from DKNY (which costs $329), and the second choice FCUK watch. Zzzz. But how about this? Nice?

DKNY Black Leather Watch 

If Suh gets the award that she applied, she’ll buy one to reward herself and as a birthday gift. =) Good luck to you, suh!

Cheers,

Suh

I had my portion of fun, you should have yours too.

I should not have attempted to influence your thoughts. You should create your own ones.

Thank you, and apologies.