A long overdue post

Dear dory,

Suh apologize for her this post. She needs to update you about her happening, you must be dying of boredom. Sorry!

You must be wondering why suh calls you dory inthis entry. Well, let me explain. Suh just finished reading the book "Anne Frank: Diary of a young girl". In the diary, Anne calls her diary Kitty and faithfully writes a letter to Kitty every few days about the happenings in Secret Annexe(their hiding place of 2 years), her thoughts, events that happened during World War II. Just like how one confides in his or her best mate. And suh wants you to have the same relationship that Anne had with her kitty. Suh wants you to be one who can patiently  lend her your listening ear, be it when she's happy, sad, fearful, or just when she needs you to be the avenue to train her language. Of course, suh promises that she will faithfully update you about the happenings around suh, so that you will not feel bored at all. So dory, suh hopes that we can be best friends forever. =)

It's kind of ironic because beforehand, suh promised to not abandon you. But now suh have to apologize, because she had conveniently abandoned you for two weeks. No updates on happenings at all! This is so bad, I know. But please, please do not be angry with me. To compensate, suh will tell you what exactly happened in her life for the past two weeks.

7th April to 18th April

School became the first home for Suh. She spent her days and nights in the school library, mostly at her favorite project room 5.4, mugging hard for Microecons and Technology and World Change(TWC). This was the first time that suh actually felt so happy and stress free while preparing for major exams. For usually, her mood swings will worsen as the exam approaches, and she will lose her appetite, and she will sacrifice her sleep without fail. But it was not so for this time round. Suh had her meals regularly, slept in a regular routine. And suh realized, she is able to learn and remember things better in this way. In the past, suh used to have the concept that exam preparation means to read through ALL the notes that were given, but she is wrong! Because it is all about techniques, a gamble to risk on which chapters are important and which parts to omit. So this is the secret that suh has been searching for so long. Must rememeber:

Study hard, and study smart! Play hard, and smart too.

She must really thank her study mates, Owen and Yunnie, for giving her the motivation to strive hard and do her best in the last lap. And also, not forgetting the picnic sessions too, there were hello panda, mashmallows, nescafe, loads of Mr Bean(I mean loads, like one set per day), Tea, fish head bee hoon, blah blah. Made my tummy grow by a few inches! Thanks guys for helping suh tide over this stressful period.  Thanks loads loads!

Here are some photos:

  Yunnie posing as ah neh

  Me with Cookie monsterss. Cropped my tummy cos its TOO big and round!

The mountain of food gave us the endorphins needed to stay high. Scary, imagine the amount of calories. And as a result of that, it explains THE SIZE of my tummy now. Big and round. Sigh..

  An evidence on how much we love the school and treat it like our first home.

[Salvage our GPA =(]

(one of the many) hilarious moments that entertainer Jie Wei never fails to bring to us. =)

Dory, I am so proud to tell you about the cheat sheet that Yunnie and I came up with. Font size 7, arial. The words were so small that I nearly need a magnifying glass to read.

Start time: 10am

End time: 1.30am the next day

Time that we spent doing this cheat sheet: 15 hours

Exam starting time: 9am the next day.

Imagine the mad rush during this 23h before the paper starts. After 1.30am, the cheat sheet was still not complete yet. But tired suh and yunnie got so desperate that they actually started to dismantle the cheat sheet that was done for mid terms, and transferred it to the current cheat sheet- using scotchtape!

So much being said, suh effort paid off. B for AW, B+ for Microecons. Though the results weren't exceptionally great, though suh's GPA is going to suffer this semester, but suh is really grateful about the things that books can never bring her to - Friendship and kinship. Thank you gods for giving suh the opportunity to learn things beyond academia, to be able to find trust and to protect her from all the harmful auras. Suh thank you with her deepest and greatest gratitude.

21st April - A day at Woodlands library with Agnes and Qing

Dory, you can never imagine the amount of joy Suh felt after the exams were officially over. The relieve and freedom feels as if you are sun-tanning at Hawaii or shopping like money is never-ending at BangKok, it is simply relaxing. Even though holidays do bring a sudden emptiness to your life, but it brings along happiness too!

Suh tried to spread her happiness to her friends- Agnes and Qing who were preparing for exams. She went to Woodlands library to give her sisters moral support.  Even though agnes and qing voiced their protest with regards to my relaxing style, but deep down, suh is very sure that they were grateful for suh's company. Because not only does suh gives moral support, she provided entertainment for them too! So sisters, don't have to thank me for that (though i know you guys are hating me for having holiday now. Haha =p).

Meantime, while providing support and entertainment for these two sisters. Suh spent her time serving net and chatting online. haha. At the same time, sieving through Kinabuhi photos(again) to find nice shots on innocent children for the school to publish on the school media. And at the very very same time, suh sieved out nice shots too to publish on her very OWN media, which is dory you! =)

A holy shot of cumulonimbus Clouds above the padi fields, with sun rays behind. Followed by a heavy storm that drenched Suh and her teammate totally, from top to toe.

  A clear night sky after a thunderstorn - Moon with halo. (it is just WOW if you had seen it in real life. The moon was extraordinary huge, not say the halo)

Pig. haha. Who says OCIP is very relac one? I was so tired that i am able to doze off practically anywhere, even on the forever bumpy jeepney ride. (Anw, I think I looked cute in this pic. LOL!)

 Suh at work, with her favorite yellow ribbon handycam. =)

  Picture with the locals during one of the house visit interviews.

A day where we hitched a ride on one of the villager's lorry , and had a never-before-experienced roller coaster ride at the back of the lorry (without any safety gears!)

At the local Christmas party, where the few Kinabuhis were "dragged" to mambo with the villagers. A shot where suh turned around looking at Shishir(the photographer) who used photography as an excuse to not dance! Grr! Suh should have used her videocam as an excuse!

29th April

Went for Starringsmu matriculation exercise for NSmen today. Suh felt weird. She felt like a vase there. Somehow, this CSP seemed to have evolved into a project where the selling point changed to a "must join because there's nice looking girls in it". Or it has already been there in the first place, just that suh is so slow to realize the point? So what is the difference between community service and helping the community? Now suh is blurred. I

know I'm wrong to say that, because starringsmu is actually a very meaningful event, especially SMU give back session. Granting the wish of the less fortunate is actually a very holy mission. So suh, you mustn't think this way. It is all for the sign ups.

I don't want followers, but friends, admirers who fall not for a flattering smile but for what one does and for one's character.    ~Anne Frank

I think what Anne said in her book is very true. So what Peter fall for her because of the intimate connection they had with one another, laying on his arms, hugging and giving kisses, and Anne needs the companion at that moment, they are all tangible. Peter does not like to talk about sensitive war and family issues, while Anne desire and needs someone to guide her along, especially on family issues. With these differences, these are all intangible and invisible, making them not compatible with one another. No wonder Anne and Peter did not end up together despite Anne's desire to have companionship.

In suh's life, she hopes that one day, the one will fall for who suh is, and what she does rather than her smile. Because one day, my youth will fade away, robbing my smile at the same time too. By then, will the one still fall for suh if her smile is no longer there? Suh has thought about it, if she ever has a chance to commit into a relationship, the first question she will ask will be, "what do you like about me?". The person who will seriously melts her heart will be the one who can tell her about the beauty that spreads from within suh. Won't it be nice, dory! =) (This is such a perfect fairy tale story)

Perfectionist. Shrugs.

Suh