Dear diary,

Despite having 2 mid terms next week, suh’s in total no mood to do anything now.

I think girls are really weird creatures. Though i am one myself, i really do find myself weird. Why do we like to say one thing and hope for another thing? When you are dying to see your bf, and yet you just refused to see him because you don’t want to tire himself. Its just so irritating! WHERE SHOULD SUH SWAY TOWARDS?? HAIZ.

No matter how suh insist to have our own social circles and our own programs, why is it that at times she just can’t help but to keep thinking what is going on over at his side, and wondering if he’s enjoying something that she’s not aware of? And worse, when he can’t make a time for her from his hall activities, birthday parties and other meetings, she feels sad and NEGLECTED and have to resort to emo nemo-ing at one corner of her room. Grr

Hey come on suh, shouldn’t you be neutral about it?! You once led a lifestyle that hectic and who was the one who ACCOMODATED to your crazy lifestyle?! Shouldn’t you be mature enough to understand the situation now since you were once on the other side of the shore, what you are feeling was how exactly he felt! And he accommodated. Why can’t you?!?! Stop emoing, and get a life (or at least get the mentality to SALVAGE your GPA!) STOP WASTING YOUR PARENTS’ HARD EARNED MONEY, YOU KUKU!

RAHH. Struggling from the two voices in my head! AHHH dory, what should i do??

Zzzzzzzzz.